Walls - Random Thought 05/24/2013

Walls.

We build them up to block the pain and harm that we no longer want to experience.  We use them to protect us from all that unwanted hurt that people seem to feel we rightfully deserve.  But what about when those same walls start to block out happiness and joy.  What do we do when those walls are so high that we can't distinguish the difference between genuine care and false love because we won't even allow ourselves to peek over and even take a glance?

Surely these walls can protect us from everything we fear but they can also stop us from obtaining everything we've ever desired.

Stop and . . . THINK *gasp*

Sometimes I really wish I didn't think so much.

I'm serious lbs! I think extremely too hard about everything.  What people say, lyrics to songs, tragedies, what people wear, evverrryytthinngggg!

I just can't help it.  I like to dissect every single thing until I get to the origin of where it could have possible come from.

 But . . . *scratches head*

Maybe there's nothing wrong with that.  Maybe more people should think deeper on everything that happens around them.

So here's the challenge.

I want you to think.  Think about what people around you are doing and think about what YOU'RE doing.  I swear this will only help . . . or make you a bit paranoid lol.

And I Am Too Guilty *hangs head*

So today, just a few minutes ago actually, I was scrolling through my Twitter news feed and someone mentioned K. Michelle.  Me, being the nosey person I am went to her page and I just started shaking my head when I looked at her AVI. It was a picture of her of course, but it appeared that she had on no bottoms at all.

Why do women have to wear little to no clothing to feel beautiful?

And as I thought about why in the hell would she be posed like this, I thought about why do I find myself doing the same exact thing.  When I go out I look for the outfit that looks greatest on my curves regardless of how much material the outfit actually consists of.

Why do I feel like it's OKAY to leave out the house barely dressed?

Now at this point I could blame the actresses and vixens who grace the covers of magazines in their lingerie grasping the attention of every man that glances.  Because lets admit it, all of our favorite women are guilty of it, Rihanna and Nicki and Ciara and even Beyonce *gasp*

But that's not who to blame.  I blame myself.  I mean how long is it going to take for me to realize how I dress is how I portray myself.  I'm not portraying anyone else.

It's easy to identify the problem, now I must focus on the solution.

4 Day Diet by Ian Smith

Okay so I know I was supposed to be doing the 6 week body makeover but over the past weekend I went home to Chicago to help my mom run her literary cafe at the Black Women's Expo.  During this time Dr. Ian Smith from The Biggest Loser came to do a signing at the cafe and I decided to purchase his 4 day diet book.  Now I'll talk about Dr. Smith later in this post.  But I read the book in like one day and it was very influential to me.  It was very detailed and encouraging unlike any online diet that I've attempted to follow.  I suggest that everyone try this diet because it touches on a lot of great points and shares a lot of needed knowledge.

This is not a 4 day diet everyone.  There are 7 phases of this diet and each phase is 4 days.  So in total that a month of dieting, 28 days.  There's different food almost everyday and it's fairly inexpensive.  I needed a diet that I wouldn't get bored doing.

So in the book he had a chapter about a reward system and I wanted to share with you all what rewards I would give myself.  These rewards are meant to push you and make you want to succeed so it has to be stuff you really want.  If you don't really want it then you won't work hard.

4 pounds - New shoes
8 pounds - Lipstick
12 pounds - Pedi and Mani
16 pounds - More New Shoes
20 pounds - Designerrrr Day
24 pounds - BIKINI
28 pounds - New Phone

Okay so everyone should understand what each reward is except maybe designerrr day.  That means that I get to go thrifting and make as many pair of shorts that I want.  I love love love making highwaisted shorts and 20 lbs down I think I'll deserve it.  And by new phone I mean I'll finally get my screen replaced on my iPhone.

During this period of time I'm not going to be purchasing clothes or shoes because when it is time to make those oh-so-lovely summer purchases I want it to be for my better body.

Oh yeah before I leave you I wanted to talk about meeting Dr. Ian Smith.  Plainly, he was rude.  He had a fake smile and acted as if he didn't want to be there.  I hate when "celebrities" act like that.  I mean without us you wouldn't be much of anything except a super fit guy.  Below is a picture of us. I look a fool but believe me everyone that smile was fake as hell.  Hopefully he gets it together.

And if there are any requests I don't mind sending the menus to you.  I understand some people don't have the funds to purchase the book so I don't mind helping out.

I'll be back tomorrow when I start phase 1 - Induction and break down my starting weight and stuff.

Until then, much love. Continuing this path to glamour.

6 Week Body Makeover - Start!

Okay I'm officially starting over today.  I weighed myself and I'm 156.2 pounds. Ughhh! But it's okay I'm about to succeed and get that number down! Right at the moment I'm drinking a fruit smoothie for breakfast. Today I'll be testing out my coconut oil as well because I'm hitting the gym.

I'm uploading a few pics so you all can kind of see what my body looks like.  I'll upload some real before photos either later tonight or tomorrow.

Much success,
Courtney

A setback with some perks!

Okay as I said last week I was starting the 6 week body makeover. Well it was going good until . . . I had company and he bought Chinese food.  I loveee Chinese food so I had some :-( so now I'm gonna just start over tomorrow.  No more cravings!!!!

Well there are some perks to me starting over as well.  I bought some coconut oil as I told you last week as well.  Well instead of consuming it, I'm just gonna put some on my abdomen and put my sweat band over it before I work out everyday (well 5 days out of the week).  That should do some major improvement.  Also my corset that I ordered from Aliexpress for $10 has finally arrived after almost a month, hence the $10 payment.  So I will be corseting as well.  I did it last night and it was fine.  I attempted to wear it under my clothes at school but my bio-lab made that quite uncomfortable.  It may just be a house thing for me.

Well here are some pics, enjoy, and I hope I've persuaded at least one person to start this challenge.

 I hear organic is the best type to get.

 The corset without being tightened.  Don't mind my mix-matched socks.

 The back without being tightened.  I used the inverted bunny ears method.

The corset tightened.

Quote of the Day

"People should not be afraid of their governments. Governments should be afraid of their people."

Think about it.